When i'm done

Borrowed with the help of Eminem's "When I'm gone"

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when she becomes the main source of your pain?
In the end she yells at you and dumps you in the rain?
"You don't love me as much as you should, you're too dependent!"
"You can't think for yourself! That's it, I'm gonna end it!"
I see you're right about me, I need the time to fix me
Just keep those doors from hitting me
"I'm still your best friend, if you need me just call"
"I'll be straight, but I won't try to hurt you at all"
As I leave you give me one last kiss and wave goodbye
Like we ended it when the note was high...

I keep having this dream, I answer my phone when it rings
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to succeed
"You're making me cry, why? Why am I crying?"
Baby, I love you and I'm here for you, "Steven you're lying"
You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But I mean it now this time, Get out of my life"
She's piling my stuff in front of the door as I leave
"Just leave, Steven just leave, Steven - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got our picture, "this'll serve your next victim, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These crazy walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You don't have to take this shit alright" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of the front door
It's turns to a park, she's gone, and the spotlights are on...

Twenty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The train's stopping, they're throwing roses at my feet
I wave them off and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance right, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Hey Frog Prince it's me, help me, my heart is bleeding"
But we're at the Point, how'd you get to the Point?
"He didn't love me, he said he's leavin for his 'ship with God"
"You are independent, you loved me more than you should"
"If it's any problem take me back if you could"
"I even brought the ring... will you marry me?"
"I want to be yours forever in life and in death you see"
But Princess wait, "It's too late ain't it? You made your choice."
"Just go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than me"
"That's what they want, they want you Steven, they keep screamin' your name"
"It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill"
"Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real"
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Steven" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the car I'm supposed to be driving crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and the children are outside swinging, I thank God for a good day
Tell Christ that I'm happy for what he's done for me, and he winks back
Almost as if to say..

And when I'm done, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back

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Also, so you know... rumors of my death were greatly exaggerated. But, I was sick. For those who left me alone... thank you for doing so because I just wanted to be left alone. Beyond that... I also got a real job down here. Alorica in Nashville was crap, and this place is actually something that is a challenge, and also dynamic (meaning it isn't the same thing day in, day out). It also is a lot more rewarding in many ways :).